on summer.

tell me that it’s coming soon.
tall grass, late nights and your smile
are what i’m counting on.
laugh because it’s all alright,
i’m planning on getting lost
with you in my sights.
i don’t care if i’m a fool,
as long as i’m a fool with you.
it’s the music that makes me sing
it’s your voice that brightens up my world.
i don’t know what i’m doing
but i’ll make it up as i go.

what was i thinking?

i can’t even be honest with myself.
i don’t know where to go.
i’m broken.
and i feel panicked.
because i just realized that i don’t know where my life is going.
somebody please tell me what to do.
somebody please tell me where to go.
everything seems meaningless all of a sudden.
God, did i do this to myself?
did i really walk away from You?
i want what i can’t have
and i pray for things that won’t happen
so where do i go from here?
i want a love that needs no explanation.
more than romance, i desire intimacy.

i remember you and your funny ways
i remember your laugh and the way you made me smile
we weren’t ready then
or perhaps we weren’t right for each other
but that doesn’t mean that i didn’t fake what i felt
and i can’t convince myself otherwise.
regardless of my motives, i gave you a piece of my heart
foolish, or otherwise. and i hope you never read this
because i couldn’t bear to tell you this in person.
it breaks me, every time i think about it.
the things that were said, the promises that were broken.
and i think i’ll spend the rest of my life wondering about you.
if you’re doing ok, or if your missing a small piece of yourself.
just like me.