that much closer

i like him.

quiet gaze, i watch

his eyes connect to everything-

but me.

i wish i could open my mouth

to spill all, or only some,

but i lost my breath when

he said hi.

I’m done pretending.

wind turns to air turns to breath
my heart beats and transforms and renews
downcast eyes reveal the skies and
i smile to show i’m still human like the rest
i feel because i can
i hurt because i choose to
pain will turn me to determination
i will not be afraid and
the world will not kill me

humanity.

grey.

the way i view things are backwards
to how most perceive truth to be.
i feel discouraged in the differences
forgot how to blink; my eyes are bloodshot
focus fixated on the ceiling waiting
on the puzzle pieces to fit together
but you were away and i am missing,
becoming more and more invisible
with every breath and heartbeat.

all the world’s a stage

cut my losses and confess that i don’t belong
i’ll stand in line for redemption,
(the dead lie on the side)
resurrect me, underneath my foul breath
callous thoughts run wildly
stop! clear your throat and compose yourself
(remember me? put me in the painting on the wall)
i am everything that you won’t explain
homeless and begging, i am the abandoned
dressed in life, stressed for success
on a journey to what lies above and not below
i will not falter, and i won’t abandon my companion
for He loved me first and carried me through
when i think about this love that has survived
separation, pain, pride and hate…
it makes me want real love more than ever.

Love casts out all fear. God is love.